I am Humble?

I am humble...there, I said it...but now am I not humble because I said I was humble?...maybe now I am humble since I admitted to not being humble...but is being humble admitting that you are not humble?...if you think you are humble does that mean you are not humble?...is it just me or is the word humble starting to sound weird?
What does it mean to be humble?
Picture this..."I am humble...I am worth nothing, I have no strengths, I am useless and disgusting and I am nothing but dirt compared to God."
Now picture this..."I am humble...I know I am a sinner, I have no right to grace in light of who I am compared to God, I know my strengths, but I also know my weaknesses."
Which "humble person" sounds like they have a healthy relationship with God? See, being humble is not so much about having a state of mind of lowliness all the time so much as knowing what you are and who God is...but most importantly what he has done for you. That may throw you a little bit, but take a look aaallllll the way back to Isaiah 53 and see what a prophecy of Jesus says.
"He was despised and rejected- a man of sorrows, acquainted with deepest grief. We turned our backs on him and looked the other way, He was despised, and we did not care.
Yet it was our weakness he carried; it was our sorrows that weighed him down."
This may cause you to ask the question "what does this have to do with humility???" But understand that the author wrote this passage in military terms. Jesus in the surrounding verses and chapters is the Messiah who comes like a king leading the battle and destroys EVERYTHING that is evil and sin. Pretty epic huh?
But he also comes saving everything worth saving. Think about it...we see soldiers in Iraq or Afghanistan who give up their lives for their fellow soldiers and we think "wow, what a humble hero!" and in good light.
Jesus came to take the bullet for all of his creation...and he is the commander and chief of the army. Not only did he die, "he was oppressed and treated harshly, yet he never said a word." Jesus was humble.
So sure, it's easy to call Jesus humble because he's Jesus and you know, perfect. So how can we call ourselves humble. I think being humble is knowing that you are a sinner, and yes, deserving of no grace. But grace is why we can be humble...because we know that we did nothing to earn or deserve redemption. You can be humble by knowing your strengths and weaknesses...as God made you to...in order to live a healthy Christian life and have a healthy relationship with God. We can be humble by knowing who we are in light of all that God is.
" And when he sees all that is accomplished by his anguish he will be satisfied. And because of his experience, my righteous servant will make it possible for many to be counted righteous, for he will bear all of their sins."
Isaiah 53:11